This article from Proverbs 31 Ministries really spoke to me. Not the specific example, but the message behind it. Since Mackenzie was diagnosed with CF, my faith has been shaken like never before and I have had many doubts creep up in my heart. I’ve been through some hard times but this is the first time I have really questioned “why!?” as deeply as I have. Why would God allow BOTH of my children to be afflicted with this lifelong disease? It doesn’t seem fair. But despite my anger and disappointment, I have continued to seek out the Lord, be honest about my feelings, and pray. He has not failed me. I continue to feel the Spirit speaking words of truth into the darkest places of my heart. I don’t have to understand why. I will probably never know the answer. But I can still trust that God loves us so much, has a purpose in allowing this to happen to us, and will work all of these things for good.
“It can be so tempting to push God away during a painful or confusing time, but try to press into Him instead. You can do that by praying honestly, reading Scripture and putting yourself in the company of other believers who will speak life into you.”